I think back to a day when I was young and the biggest debate on my mind was to play 4-square or kickball at recess! Call me a small town girl, but there are many days I wish I could just go back to that!!
I never realized how hard it would be to actually be an adult! I assumed everything just 'fell' into place, people were much more respectful and mature, and issues were not just tossed around but confronted. I think that I expected too much :o/
As for life- I absolutely couldn't be happier! Things have fallen into their perfect little places as if they were a puzzle meant to fit together! There isn't a single thing that I would change about any aspect of my home life- except for maybe the addition of a maid.... hmmmm ;oP
My career- well, a job is a job! I wish that everyone loved their career every day, but that's just not a reality!! I've recently applied for (and from what I've been told I've gotten???) an ICU position at the hospital I work for. I just need a change- any change- something different! I love most of the people I work with, but I'm just falling into that rut where there aren't enough questions to be asked! That means it's time for Rach to move on :oP
As for people- friends- BLAH! This is a subject that seems to lead to a lot of drama, and I'm still unsure why?! I'm not a person that tends to have drama following close behind, but it seems that lately, this is the case!... I'm just not sure how easy it is to come to a new place and find true friends! Don't get me wrong, there are a few people here that I will have a lifelong bond with, I'm sure! The thing is, that it seems when you come into someone's life at an unexpected point, there are expectations, and concerns that other people may have for you. That's just not me- I'm the 'don't worry about me, I've got my life under control' kinda girl! It's tough to have a stalker, behind you back talking, and immaturity that just is uncalled for! As I matured into an adult I assumed (yes, we all know what that means LOL) that people would all be mature and handle situations in a respectful manner. I've learned that I'm wrong, and I will certainly learn from my mistakes!!
Life is a great and mysterious thing- one in which we all deal with and also something that will come to an end for all of us!! I just hope that in my life I can be the person that I wish others were- upfront, honest, caring, and respectful. Maybe that's just not the nature of many people here in Arizona, but that's how I was raised. I keep telling people that it's hard to convince myself that the world isn't this perfect little happy bubble that I always thought it was- and it's so true!! I guess it's just harder to deal with these things than I had expected :o/
...And they lived happily ever after!
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Hey honey I'm sorry all this chaos and madness is happening now, but you are a strong person and will find the strength to get through it. I LOVE U!!!! I'm so mad you are leaving don't forget me.
You will be fine, getting out of a "rut" is always a great idea, especially because you don't want to become one of those crabby, grumpy, "I hate my job" nurses. That's why I left when I did, because I didn't want to turn into something that I have seen other nurses turn into. I kinda wish I had a stalker, cuz I don't have many people to talk to or hang with, so all that attention would be grand. Anywho, good luck and let me know how things go. Just don't let the stress of things get to your head, after the wedding things will calm down ( and you might even be a little bored )!!!???? That's when you should remember your friends and fall back on the ones you may have forgotten about in all the madness of marital chaos.
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